TRauAMa Center Under the Knife!!

U want to talk about one game that is high stress...try playing trauma center for the DS OR WII (both will do the same thing). That game is like so freggn panic worry. The nurses are screaming "Dr. Stiles" and "He/She is flat lining" it's scary enough as it is with all the cutting and stitching and if you mess up it's like FATAL ERROR and you gotta use the life juice to bring them back (I love life juice... if only such a thing really existed)

Antywhomes, I'm sitting at the cancer institute waiting for a shot (and to talk to my doc about why I don't want chemo this week) and the nurse pops up behind me like what cha' doin and I was like "apparently I'm butchering my patient cause u just scared the bejeezus (hugh that word is in the dictionary..lol) out of me :0! But it's all good, I just restarted it HA!

Me and Mort had big steak omlets last night at Ihop...yummy!

Current Obsession: Dr. Irabu Ichiro  from Trapeze the anime!!! <3 He makes me Swoon...

love!

The agony...The pain!!!

So like this week has been hella HELLZ! I have been in sooo much pain that its's not even concievable... I don't see how people can deal with this shiz on a regular basis.

I was in my pharms to pharmasuticles class and we went over cannibis wich is latin for marajuwanna and I heard all about the awesome things that it can do for people who are going through chemo like nausea control, pain control, and all ver feelings of awesomeness... WHY THE HELL-O ISN'T THIS STUFF LEGAL ALL OVER... I mean at least for medicinal purpouses...jeeze, Imma so ask my chemo doctor about that b/c there is apparenly a pill form of the stuff and if it will help ease my pain...i'll soooo freeggn do it.

I mean man I felt like the grim reaper had his bony fingers all over my innards and ripped themm out of my body just to drag them around and tie them to the back of his herst and rode around for like sixteen miles with my inards trailing and just to make me feel the pain he put them back inside me and just watched me squirm for like an entire week.

THEN wouldn't you know that chemo week is next week so imma be in like pain all next week 2....sigh...I can't wait till this shit is over...sigh.... 6 out of 12 treatments done...haha...ha.haha.

OOooohhh I went shoping on the net and bought me one of the new bambo funs and the next 3 volumes of onethousandd and one nights yatah!! I also got me some snow boots for my cold as feet and because I have no shoes that cover my whole foot...um.... oh an aviator hat to cover my ears, some leg warmers, tights, ooohhh and kick ass geisha sunglasses (cause even when its cold down south the sun still shines bright)

Ugh...I also heard that there are some hurricanes brewing in the gulf. JUST WONDERFUL... yeah hope the power don't go out...that's gonan revert everybody into cave people and so begins the looting and pillaging...

OOoohh just found out my auntie got me a laptop (now I will have to computers yay) I'll probably let my sis use that though....unless it has a webcam, then shee'll have to wait till I get one for my desktop hehe.

I want some new clothes.... then again could have had them but i spent my money on the formentioned items above...well there's always next month.

Hmnnn wonder if i'll actually cosplay next year. I know I sooo want to do a victorian goth outfit and I actually found a site that has cute gothy clothes in plus sizes YAY!!

http://www.starletsandharlets.com/Plus_Size_Dress_Dresses_s/131.htm

Id like take anything form that store XD!!

so yah...peace ya'll

so like....hmn...yeah...

I have this huge azz acid bump on the left side of my tounge and it HURTZ!!

In other news, I went to the fair :) (that's rite I drug my tired ass out of bed and went to the fair). It was so much fun hearing people scream and looking at all the miley cyrus clones...I guess the black tutu is what's in this season. Besides the woman with painted on spandex and all her goodies hanging out, most people dressed quite sensibly for it being so cold :)

THe next day I went on a nice picnic with friends...been so long since I've done that one :)

And on Sunday I went to see Astro Boy! Not gonna lie...wasn't really gonna go watch it (I mean I wanted to, but without the risk of lookin like some pedo in the theater lookin at a lil boy in blak undies and ass lasers) in fromnt of people lol... you know that show was kinda pretty pervy back in the day ;). But ya know what... it was actually a prety good movie! Of course some key elements about astros background were changed to fit the movies heme, but they made it work, and Astro was adorable (though as a robot boy being a human I jsut couldn't shake the odd feeling that he just looked di-ff-ER-ent from the other kids.) Then I saw him sittin' next to the girl and I was like "DAMNED ASTRO THICK" yeah...that was it, he's a pretty sturdy lil boy.

I always wanted to hear someone address his ass machine guns though (they just laughed it off in the movie, oh and btw Astro did the cutest lil laugh every time he found a new power, swoon). I guess his father wanted him to be covered from ALL angels of attack...lol ALL ANGELS, I crack myself up...

I had a stoma freight last night though :0. Sooo I'm chillin in the shower when something tells me to look down and there it was... my stoma was skeeting out bloof like a little jet stream (talk about freak out). I must have been bleeding for like an hour or so before I realized it. I sure did feel light headed though, I slept hella long today.... Antywhoms after freaking out naked in my dorm with my roomie I asked her to call people with cars and I called my ma'. So she was telling me to relax and breath and aasked me if I had tried applying pressure...I did and it eventually stoped. (btw the emergency room tele service sucks, they trancfered me 3times and left me on hold for like 10 minutes..ugh)

Well at least now I know in what order to call folks if I need to go to the hospital and my roomies bro got my back XD! but yeah... fun times...fun times...

I got so much work to dooooo....meeehhhh...but it's all for a good cause (at least the graphic design project is) Doing a coloring book for why people should spay or neuter their pets...pounds are so sad man...

I also gotta finish my paining for well painting it's a scenery pic... I think i'm almost done anywayz....man i'm tired...I'm going to bed...

BTW HERE'S SOME RANDOM ARTWORK!!!

ugh vomity....

So I actually had chemo today....I feel like throwing up everywhere already. U usally I go to painting class and sit through it, but I really feel like shit today, and wouldn't you know, I sprang a leak...ugh...Porqua DX!!

Hmnnn, bitch, bitch, moan, ouch, soar, vomit, tired, really tires, almost unconscious.....

whenever I get like this, I just want to sit down and watch some movies as I try to sleep it off. I gotta make myself pee like crazy so I can flush this crap out of me....Drink DRink Drink thoses fluids girl.

It's getting cold around here to (thanx to chemo i'm hyper cold sensitive) so that's got me a  lil worried...I like the cold, but id'm to sick for this jizz now...I want a cardigan sweater jacket thingy...they look so warm and fuzzy :) http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?pid=692462&kwid=1&sem=false&sdReferer=http://www.oldnavy.com/products/cardigans-dresses-skirts-womens-C48635.jsp

with theses gloves in a comphy 2x

 http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=50318&vid=1&pid=699765&scid=699765022

and these sunglasses (because even when it's cold down here, the sun still shines soo bright)

and this top in 2x

http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=5623&vid=1&pid=692537

and because I have to be comfy on the bottom these days, theses snug pants in a 2-3x (gotta think of the stoma...hmn....

http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=36965&vid=1&pid=670458&scid=670458012

If I didn't have to worry about my stoma, It would have been these pants...

http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=9086&vid=8&pid=670454

because I adore pinstipes XD!!

oh and shoes...usually I go for flats, but since it's chilly I wouldn't mind being covered or comphy so...

http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=42718&vid=1&pid=699046&scid=699046012

Gawd, i'd have to get a size 11 cause o my wide feet though -_-6

It's funny, I have never really shopped at old navy but a buddy of mine told me to check it out, and I was kinda surprised (everything is so damned pricy though XP

now leaving the gap....

Now if I were to wear this with a dress, it would be this one!

http://www.monifc.com/plus-size-dresses/marilyn-convertible-dress-50.html

ohhh and back to the cold...I need a scarf

http://shop.nordstrom.com/S/3029961/0~2376779~6008000~6006944~6025984?mediumthumbnail=Y&origin=category&searchtype=&pbo=6025984&P=1

now that's snazy, but I need some leg protection, so I'd pull these on to...

http://www.greatstockingz.com/c=RX5weptOTCwbWgCzl1K1BJ40X/product/3PTLE6005/Crazy_Striped_Over_The_Knee_Stockings_Asst_Colors.html

oh yeah, luvin it!

MY HAT!!

I definatley want a German bomber hat, cause they look amazingly warm, but I lost the one I had :(

yeah that's all me

and just for cuteness sake, this bag

http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/Accessories/Bags/HandBags/The-Marvelous-Misadventures-Of-Flapjack-Star-Tote-161000.jsp

what an awesomely gay show!!

Ok..imma' crawl into bed and let the chemo pains begin....

TOday I...

So I'm trying to learn how to edit my assorted webpage themes that allow editing..this shiz is CONFurzin to the MAx... I know I can get it, but still it's gonna take me a minute D:. I was suppose to spend this weekend working on my designs and a logo for myself...well I did do some stuff, and I did draw so it wasn't a complete waste.y-gallery

TIME FOR NARCISSISM AND DOODELS!!!!

I spent wayyyy to much time on that Imac.

and now a doodel :)

fuuuunnn times XD!

Fudge yeah or no....

Well I didn't have to do chemo today cause my blood counts were to low again, but I'm glad at the same time cause I don't have to deal with the lame ass side effects that are sickening DX!! But at the same time I'm like falling behind schedule...sigh...
Antywhoms I can't believe I slept till like freggn 4pm yesterday...gawd, this chemo is sersly sickning with how tired I am all the time...
OOOHHHH Halloween is coming up and I've been looking for some fun events to do on halloween. I wanted to do this murder mystery dinner party but it cost like 50$ a person so there that goes :(, but luckly My good buddy invited me to their colleges anime club and they are having a party w00t, I get to show off my goth kitten outfit :)
I'm also like getting Truma center under the knife too (unfortunately my poor buddy can't handel the stress of truama center...although, I can see why though. That game had me screaming and freaking out the first time I played. Erupting shards of glass in peoples bodies and parasitic lil bat creatures slicing up peoples lungs out of nowhere....that'd make any ones heart skip a beat. Sooo she's giving it to me. Now if I could  only beat elite beat agents on ajent J... gawd the last song is so hard. I love cooking mama...I wanna get cooking mama 2 now XD! and play the worlds ends with you...awesome!!!
Ooohh next graphic design project is working with the animal shelter and making the people of the world aware of Y U NEED TO SPAY AND NUTER YOUR PETS!!! So yeah,, gotta brainstorm on that...I also got like a 4pg apper do for art history...I should soooo be doing that...guess I won't be sleeping tomorrow lol.
I gotta a pretty neato candy skull for El dia de los muertos from my bud who went to chicago over break :)
I also actually sat down and made a video of my stoma / colostomy I don't think I'll post it any ware, but it's for me to remember this time in my life...yeah...
Gotta go to my surgeon tomorrow and talk to her for like 3 minutes after waiting for an hour in the waiting room...well that's what handhelds are for I guess :)

ok that's it for tonight :)

Pets n stuff...

So I JUST finshed creating my own lil squiby and here she is



Click Me!
Adopted from squiby


Ooohhh it was so much fun to do thisss I just sat down and did it and before you know it was done and I went yay...I think I have to like click it or get others to click it every day so that she will evolve....yeah.

My poor tablet is on the verge of having an anerism. I didn't realize I held my pen so tightly, well apaprently I do cause it has now practically snapped in half...yeah, BS RITE :0!! I'm in the neighborhood for a new one anyways so meh...but I did plan on passing it down...it's a viz if your wondering and it has lased me about a whole year (then again i'm really tuff on stuff so it's a miracle it's been aroound so long lol...but still.

My good friend Valery came over from Mississippi and we have been watching Korean movies like crazy! The funniest one was the one where all these bishies are being targeted by a guy who flings pooh at pretty boys...hilarious. It was called attack of the pin-up boys lol (LOVED IT)! Then we watched Lovely Complex the movie, it was LOVE! Just like the anime was. It's really like a one up for us tall girls. Story of my life, I'm like 5'10 so yeah :)


Well Chemo's tomorrow and of curse I really don't wanna go cause I have to deal with it this week ugh...there goes my thursday, well at least I should be good for the fair w00t...but then there's Halloween...that's on a chemo week, BUT it's on a saturday so I should feel OooooKaaaayyy yeah.... I think I have a loratab in my purse...might need it....

Peace yinz guys!