Monday, October 26, 2009

so like....hmn...yeah...

I have this huge azz acid bump on the left side of my tounge and it HURTZ!!

In other news, I went to the fair :) (that's rite I drug my tired ass out of bed and went to the fair). It was so much fun hearing people scream and looking at all the miley cyrus clones...I guess the black tutu is what's in this season. Besides the woman with painted on spandex and all her goodies hanging out, most people dressed quite sensibly for it being so cold :)

THe next day I went on a nice picnic with friends...been so long since I've done that one :)

And on Sunday I went to see Astro Boy! Not gonna lie...wasn't really gonna go watch it (I mean I wanted to, but without the risk of lookin like some pedo in the theater lookin at a lil boy in blak undies and ass lasers) in fromnt of people lol... you know that show was kinda pretty pervy back in the day ;). But ya know what... it was actually a prety good movie! Of course some key elements about astros background were changed to fit the movies heme, but they made it work, and Astro was adorable (though as a robot boy being a human I jsut couldn't shake the odd feeling that he just looked di-ff-ER-ent from the other kids.) Then I saw him sittin' next to the girl and I was like "DAMNED ASTRO THICK" yeah...that was it, he's a pretty sturdy lil boy.

I always wanted to hear someone address his ass machine guns though (they just laughed it off in the movie, oh and btw Astro did the cutest lil laugh every time he found a new power, swoon). I guess his father wanted him to be covered from ALL angels of attack...lol ALL ANGELS, I crack myself up...

I had a stoma freight last night though :0. Sooo I'm chillin in the shower when something tells me to look down and there it was... my stoma was skeeting out bloof like a little jet stream (talk about freak out). I must have been bleeding for like an hour or so before I realized it. I sure did feel light headed though, I slept hella long today.... Antywhoms after freaking out naked in my dorm with my roomie I asked her to call people with cars and I called my ma'. So she was telling me to relax and breath and aasked me if I had tried applying pressure...I did and it eventually stoped. (btw the emergency room tele service sucks, they trancfered me 3times and left me on hold for like 10 minutes..ugh)

Well at least now I know in what order to call folks if I need to go to the hospital and my roomies bro got my back XD! but yeah... fun times...fun times...

I got so much work to dooooo....meeehhhh...but it's all for a good cause (at least the graphic design project is) Doing a coloring book for why people should spay or neuter their pets...pounds are so sad man...

I also gotta finish my paining for well painting it's a scenery pic... I think i'm almost done anywayz....man i'm tired...I'm going to bed...

BTW HERE'S SOME RANDOM ARTWORK!!!


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

ugh vomity....

So I actually had chemo today....I feel like throwing up everywhere already. U usally I go to painting class and sit through it, but I really feel like shit today, and wouldn't you know, I sprang a leak...ugh...Porqua DX!!

Hmnnn, bitch, bitch, moan, ouch, soar, vomit, tired, really tires, almost unconscious.....

whenever I get like this, I just want to sit down and watch some movies as I try to sleep it off. I gotta make myself pee like crazy so I can flush this crap out of me....Drink DRink Drink thoses fluids girl.

It's getting cold around here to (thanx to chemo i'm hyper cold sensitive) so that's got me a  lil worried...I like the cold, but id'm to sick for this jizz now...I want a cardigan sweater jacket thingy...they look so warm and fuzzy :) http://oldnavy.gap.com/browse/product.do?pid=692462&kwid=1&sem=false&sdReferer=http://www.oldnavy.com/products/cardigans-dresses-skirts-womens-C48635.jsp


with theses gloves in a comphy 2x



and these sunglasses (because even when it's cold down here, the sun still shines soo bright)




and this top in 2x



and because I have to be comfy on the bottom these days, theses snug pants in a 2-3x (gotta think of the stoma...hmn....


If I didn't have to worry about my stoma, It would have been these pants...


because I adore pinstipes XD!!

oh and shoes...usually I go for flats, but since it's chilly I wouldn't mind being covered or comphy so...


Gawd, i'd have to get a size 11 cause o my wide feet though -_-6

It's funny, I have never really shopped at old navy but a buddy of mine told me to check it out, and I was kinda surprised (everything is so damned pricy though XP

now leaving the gap....

Now if I were to wear this with a dress, it would be this one!




ohhh and back to the cold...I need a scarf

now that's snazy, but I need some leg protection, so I'd pull these on to...



oh yeah, luvin it!

MY HAT!!
I definatley want a German bomber hat, cause they look amazingly warm, but I lost the one I had :(
yeah that's all me
and just for cuteness sake, this bag



what an awesomely gay show!!

Ok..imma' crawl into bed and let the chemo pains begin....

Sunday, October 18, 2009

TOday I...

So I'm trying to learn how to edit my assorted webpage themes that allow editing..this shiz is CONFurzin to the MAx... I know I can get it, but still it's gonna take me a minute D:. I was suppose to spend this weekend working on my designs and a logo for myself...well I did do some stuff, and I did draw so it wasn't a complete waste.y-gallery

TIME FOR NARCISSISM AND DOODELS!!!!





I spent wayyyy to much time on that Imac.
and now a doodel :)



fuuuunnn times XD!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Fudge yeah or no....

Well I didn't have to do chemo today cause my blood counts were to low again, but I'm glad at the same time cause I don't have to deal with the lame ass side effects that are sickening DX!! But at the same time I'm like falling behind schedule...sigh...
Antywhoms I can't believe I slept till like freggn 4pm yesterday...gawd, this chemo is sersly sickning with how tired I am all the time...
OOOHHHH Halloween is coming up and I've been looking for some fun events to do on halloween. I wanted to do this murder mystery dinner party but it cost like 50$ a person so there that goes :(, but luckly My good buddy invited me to their colleges anime club and they are having a party w00t, I get to show off my goth kitten outfit :)
I'm also like getting Truma center under the knife too (unfortunately my poor buddy can't handel the stress of truama center...although, I can see why though. That game had me screaming and freaking out the first time I played. Erupting shards of glass in peoples bodies and parasitic lil bat creatures slicing up peoples lungs out of nowhere....that'd make any ones heart skip a beat. Sooo she's giving it to me. Now if I could  only beat elite beat agents on ajent J... gawd the last song is so hard. I love cooking mama...I wanna get cooking mama 2 now XD! and play the worlds ends with you...awesome!!!
Ooohh next graphic design project is working with the animal shelter and making the people of the world aware of Y U NEED TO SPAY AND NUTER YOUR PETS!!! So yeah,, gotta brainstorm on that...I also got like a 4pg apper do for art history...I should soooo be doing that...guess I won't be sleeping tomorrow lol.
I gotta a pretty neato candy skull for El dia de los muertos from my bud who went to chicago over break :)
I also actually sat down and made a video of my stoma / colostomy I don't think I'll post it any ware, but it's for me to remember this time in my life...yeah...
Gotta go to my surgeon tomorrow and talk to her for like 3 minutes after waiting for an hour in the waiting room...well that's what handhelds are for I guess :)

ok that's it for tonight :)

Monday, October 12, 2009

Pets n stuff...

So I JUST finshed creating my own lil squiby and here she is



Click Me!

Adopted from squiby



Ooohhh it was so much fun to do thisss I just sat down and did it and before you know it was done and I went yay...I think I have to like click it or get others to click it every day so that she will evolve....yeah.

My poor tablet is on the verge of having an anerism. I didn't realize I held my pen so tightly, well apaprently I do cause it has now practically snapped in half...yeah, BS RITE :0!! I'm in the neighborhood for a new one anyways so meh...but I did plan on passing it down...it's a viz if your wondering and it has lased me about a whole year (then again i'm really tuff on stuff so it's a miracle it's been aroound so long lol...but still.

My good friend Valery came over from Mississippi and we have been watching Korean movies like crazy! The funniest one was the one where all these bishies are being targeted by a guy who flings pooh at pretty boys...hilarious. It was called attack of the pin-up boys lol (LOVED IT)! Then we watched Lovely Complex the movie, it was LOVE! Just like the anime was. It's really like a one up for us tall girls. Story of my life, I'm like 5'10 so yeah :)


Well Chemo's tomorrow and of curse I really don't wanna go cause I have to deal with it this week ugh...there goes my thursday, well at least I should be good for the fair w00t...but then there's Halloween...that's on a chemo week, BUT it's on a saturday so I should feel OooooKaaaayyy yeah.... I think I have a loratab in my purse...might need it....

Peace yinz guys!

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Tablet talk and what not...

Sooooo I have been in the market for a new tablet for a while now. I amean ever since I got my first one I was happy as a fregggin dog with some beggn strips, but then this school had to go and show off with ther expensive (and beautiful) Wacom tablet screen and ther bamboo medium size tablets! I mean it was like a month after I got my own lil tablet (it's a viz and it's pretty darned good for a cheap tablet if I do say so myself...although SOMEtimessss I really wnna slap it around whenit starts actin a lil funny with the twiches and all those damned short cut keys...

Antywhom I was looking up tablets the other day and WHAM surprise!! Wacom allready has thei new line up of tablets out. I'm like soooo hella freggn excited. The one I want is the Bamboo Fun medium (though it was the Bamboo Fun Pen and Touch but I researched and found it was the other so w00t). It's like $219 and I'm willing to pay up to that much for it!

It's truly a beaut http://www.macworld.co.uk/digitallifestyle/news/index.cfm?newsid=27255 I can't wait till next month (Probably gonna have just enougth to get it). I mean I just bought a new computer (it's another Acer like my beautiful laptop that died over the  summer...it was good to me. Now that extremly ungratedful external hard drive...I don't know what is wrong with that heffer, but it sure quit on me fast...) I love the wide screen on it swoon (awesome for all the tv I watch in bed these days) and more then 30gigs of memory with my 4 gigs of ram, HEllz-Yeah.

Antywhoms, I'm truly excited about that. I also really wanna play that Kingdom HEsrtd 365/2 or whatever it's called Ohh and the World ENds With You...that looked like fun for the ds. Man I really do love Dissidea to, so worth that 25 bucks I helped put towards it. I get to play with KU-JA AND ZI-DANE and a bunch of other hotties.

Manga reccomendtion of the post: His most Favorite http://www.mangafox.com/manga/aitsu_no_daihonmei/ (yeah... it's a bl tittel, but it's just shonen-ai, I raelly love the manga-ka and this story reminded me why). It's a lovely story about this guy who isn't the bishie type at all... he's actually the oposite (I think he's hella cute though with the funniest expressions) they even go as far as callin he and his friends "The Ugly Squad" (rude MuCH) and the most handsome guy in schoo apparently has the hots for him! It all ties back to childhood events and sudden realizations on the main characters part, but oh my oh my It's a good read :)

Man I know they said it would take like 3-6 months to get used to having a stoma but man oh man... I love to go out and eat, but these days some foods I just avoid JUST so I don't have to see what it looks like comming out DX! Like leafy bits (but me like salad) antywhomes things like corn just feel awkward coming out because it doesn't break down all the way and I can like FEEL it when it shots out. I mean it doesn't hurt per-say, but it feels REAL AWKWARD coming out...kinda tingly. Heaven forbid that I'm wearing fitted pants because it'll smoosh food rite on out anyways and suffocate itself. WORST FEELING almost EVER! I miss being able to take a shit when I actually feel like it...ugh...think i'm gonna take some pics of it  next time I change :)

I've been drawing a lot too lately so that's always a plus! I dowloaded this new art application called Paint Tool Sai and it is really wonderful!! I like it more then Photoshop and Open Canvas (and I luv Open Canvas...Photoshop is just more convient for me I suppose)! The english version (casue it's originally Japanese [of course]) is on this site http://sai.detstwo.com/sai/ sadley it is but a 30 trial BUT the progrm its self can be purchased for only $50 so that's a steel.

What I love about sai is how natural it feel sto draw with the application and better yet COLOR ohh the coloring is so much fun and the blending properties are even better. I mean such seemless transitions between colors and it looks fabulous!! I made my lil banner at the bottom of this page with it :) (I really don't see why I can't change it so the banner shows up at the top >3<). I really gotta learn me some html er sumthin. But first I want to tackel FLASH and of course in design...ewww....

Ok I'm done for today :)

Beacuse I couldn't fit this all on the profile page...

LIKES:

I am a huge anime/manga fan to the max, and I am all for free love, but I definatly lean towards the yaoi when it comes to my fandom (but not limited to, a good action series like Air Master or something nice and dark like Speed Grapher totally gets me going!!)

I loves me some video games to, OOoooohh yeah! Mostly 2-D fighters like Darkstalkers and the Guilty Gear series. I currently own a ds and love me some cooking mama and Elite beat agents (the last song for agent J is killing me DX)! My sis has a psp so we put up the cash for final fantasy Dissidea (hellz to the yeah that game is worth it)! I just get so thrilled to see my fav charaters bought back to life (Fav final fantasy is 9 so w00t for some Zidane and Kuja). I'm working my ass off to get Kuja to level 100 but I only get it on weekends and it is like hella hard to level up the antagonist of the series cause they don't get a story mode till later. But f that, I just play the coliseum now (so glad she unlocked that).

Fav Games: CHRONO CROSS (Best RPG ever, and I don't Care if it's barely related to chrono trigger [Final Fantasy does it all the time] it was AMAZING) Final Fantasy 9 then 7 I suppose. Devil May Cry 3. Blaze Blue, Marel vs Capcom, Fatal Fury (u name it) Like I said Guilty Gear and street fighter (puzzel fightes the bomb to) Bust a Groove, Kingdom Hearts 1 and 2. Shadow Heaarts, Tales of Symphonia and Legendia (working on abyss and vesperia) Dragon Quest 8 (the one game where I purposly hope I get the status ailment "boogie") and Star Ocean till the end of time (though my sis started to slowely make me detest it after her nonstop playing of it while I was bed ridden). Albel for the win! Oh some Phenix Wright! Cooking Mama too. I like drawn to life as well. Ohh and super mario 64 and Imma sucker for mario PARTIES and kart racing in general...

Fav anime's are Samurai Champloo, Gankutsuou, Ai no Kusabi, Gantz, Berserk, Speed Grapher, Kyo Kara Maoh, Kuroshitsuji, Oofuri, Vampire Hunter D, Crying Freeman, Soul Eater = LOVE, Brave Story Mononoke (the mecicine peddlar) Howl's Moving Castel (and Miyazaki in General) Foreign Love Affair (the manga is awesome two) Guren Lagann, Heat Guy J, Midori Days, Descendents of Darkness (soo swoon it, even bought the sound track...quite lovely) and Lovely Complex (Cutest Coupple ever [once they fianly do get together])...

Currently watching: 07 Ghost, Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto (mouth full), Otogi Zoshi, Reborn )so freggn long...son't know...if I ...can FINISH... Just Finished antique Bakery the anime (gawd it rekindeled my sweet tooth) and get this, I watched the live action Movie... and I LOVED it. Also just finishe the second season to Junjo Romantica season 2! OOhh and I watched Maiden Rose the anime...wow...

Want to watch/Pending/Waiting:

Been diying forever to finish heat guy j, Peacemaker Kurogone, La Cavilier D'ion, Nerima Daikon Seikka Brothers, The rest of the Medicine Peddlar series, and Oofuri season 2. Been patiently waiting for the remastered 13 episode ova version of ai no kusabi (still need to read all the books though. Heard about a season 2 to Kuroshitsuji (though I don't know how that'll work off considering the end). I'm still debating over wether or not I wanna buy Glass Fleet (yeah all that stuff is actually stuff I wanna buy) I know if I watched the abriged series I wont... the rest I can wait I suppose.

Manga wise it's mostly yaoi tittles, but not completly subjected to that. I swoon over anything that Nanoa Bora creates especially A Desire Boy (love electricty, that's waht made me love her first)! Asami Tojo for her lovely sex scenes (may she rest in piece). I adore the series Little Butterfly and the author Takanaga Hinako in general, Her stories are LOVE. AITSU NO DAIHONMEI by Tanka Suzuki. yeah she's another one where I just love her manga's in general for her awesome story telling abilities (see I'm not always all about the hardcore :). The author Mizukami ShiN makes awesome shit I'll leave it at that :). ANYTHING BY the author Kunieda Saika, her stuff always makes me want to see more, my fav stories of her's are The Gaurdian and Something about As the rain will fall so will etc... and of course I can't forget my girl HOMERUN KEN. Awesome art followed up with hilarious and sexy stories to boot...that's a good nights read. My fav series by her is Clan of The Nakagamis (apparently there;s a volume 2!!).

Ok I went on a tangent about fav authors, but some of my fav stories (excluding stuff by those authors cause there like AMAZING)! I really swoon Wild Rock to death and Man's Best Friend wasn't to bad. Eerie Quiree was one of my first (My first being Gravitation, but who doesn't know about that series [Ooohhh Maki Murakami and her doujinshis. Talk about Hardcore, read one of the Mega Mixes for gravitatione]! I mean it's like EPIC. Funny though...couldn't get into the anime). Maiden Rose (I'm sucha sucker for inter-racial coupples and just pairings that show diversity [not just hight difference...but that counts if the top is the shorter one XD] when it comes to love. I just EAT IT UP <3!! I f'n LOVE SEX PISTOLS to death. Oh and 1000 and one nights the manwha (amazing in art and stories). Rope man and because I'm a boy. Chintsubu (helarious talking peni)! Alone in my Kings Harem. The artist for that series really draws flat chested chicks with dicks, but even so I still bought her pretty ass artbook XD!

Non yaoi fired manga: Hands off, Real Bout Highschool (anime sucks). Pet Shop of Horrors (Love the Count)btw anime was wayyy to short! Black sun silver moon is cool to bad can't buy it around here any more... Ooohh and Soul Eater (love). Yeah there are probably more, but I can't think of them rite now...

Manga I'm currently reading... Ultimo,Vinlad Saga, No Bra, 1/2 Prince (usually I don't like gender benders [and harems at that...usually I did love Tenchi Muyo and didn't mind the manga Love Hina]cause the confusion tends to make me weary, but I do like Kill me Kiss me the manwha...hmn and this one is interesting). Bleach and naruto....yeah...me too. Waiting patiently for next chapter of Kuroshitsuji, and some random yaoi on mangafox.

Hmmnn TV let's see, I am in love with Dr. Who but it's shown at a retarded hour in the moarning so I just watch it on netflix. I fell in love with it durring my many many sleepless nights in the hospital..it bought me so much joy in those dark days *sigh* :)! I'm also in love with The misadventures of Flap Jack and Total Drama Action (though I miss them alot) I sooooo want the flap jack bag at hottopic, so cute XD! Ooohhh and I LOVE me some True Blood can't wait till season 3 comes out and of course The Number 1 Ladies Detective Agency in Africa (waiting for new season)!!! I'm waiting for the new season of Venture Bros... I do heart me some family guy and even some king of the hill.

Oldies but goodies: Animorphs (I have like almost all the books, chronicles, alternamorphs, and megamorphs...I was an addict. Jake and Cassie ftw. I also loved Power rangers up until they got lost in space I believe... I like americas next top model for the pictures. Drawn together was amazing show...miss it. Harvey Bird man attorney at law! The Mighty Bosh. The Office, Scrubs, WH wants a clean house (blame it on the hospital...that was my summer) that and CSI doesn't matter which one...

MOVIES: I love the nightmare before christmas, james and the giant peach, Interview with a Vampire, Edward Scissor Hands, Smokin Aces, Let the rite One In, The Orphanage, Power Rangers Turbo, The Cell, Warriors of Virtue, Tank Girl, Lion King 2, I love You Man, Cassanova, Anything with Paolo Costanzo, Johnny Depp, and almost Brad Pitt, Once Uppon A TIme in Mexico, To wan fu with love, Gohatto (Taboo) Eternal Summer, and Quintin Terintono films with some Tyler Perry for fun.
Can't wait to see  Where the Wild Things Are, and I really want to see Prescious as well (probably gonna make me cry). Last thing I saw was Jennifer's Body..Odly enougth I liked it...freakin hilarious actually... well in that dark sorta way...

Music wise I'm an alternative Indie girl lover at heart, but I'm very versitile, my playlist range from smooth/acid jazz Jamiroqui all the way to Jpop and Korean Malice Mizer and B-Rain and Clasical Gabriel Faure to R&B Jill Scott so I'm pretty good with almost anything besides COUNTRY and HARD RAP eewwwie

Food wise... before chemo and surgery I had a hella sweet tooth. Now-a-days, I gotta admit not so much in love with the candies anymore T_T I seriously weep at that. Currently I have been having a red meat craving (probably due to my low blood counts...hmmnn). I still love food though!My fa types oh food are definatly mama's home cooking, she sure knows how I like my meatloaf and taddders mashed with peas in tehm and tuna cassarol and fish day fridays..I'm talking amjor droolage, I also love me some stufffed cabbage. Japanese food (no pickeld anything [tried ume onigiri once and almost puked] or raw anything) especially teriyaki beef and tempura shrimp. Gawsh their food always looks so cutely aranged to...Italian is pretty good, lOVE ME SOME LASAGNA AND OF COURSE some hearty spagetti. I like Gyro's, but that doesn't say much about greek quasine. I'm in college so of course pizza (though been kinda tired of it lately). Chinese, ai'll eat almost anything off the menu so long as it's not pork or to spicey (I have like the weakest tounge when it comes to spicey food...that and really strong mint flavored anything, makes me gag up a storm). Seafood is delich (as long as it's cooked). Oh I've also gone into a deli craze, I just have been craving delicious sandwiches and soups.
Drink wise I'm a HUGE tea fan, I love fruit flavored teas (raspberry prop my fav...OH WAIT CRANBERRY is pretty awesome...and so is pmegrant...). I like my tea English style with some cream or milk usually, but not with a fruit tea. Usually some spicey Chai or VANILLA!! I can't have anything with alcohol in it so no cosmos or sec on the beaches for me for a while...

I've also gone into this phase where I sweeten my drinks with honey more so then sugar (oh and I absouloutley detest artificial sweetners XP. It's funny to, cause as soon as I got out the hospital I had the hugest craving for Orange pop...Love that stuff and gigner als (helps with the nausea). Ohh and I love bottel house farms drinks to. The chai soy latte and mango cherry and somethin else smoothie is DIVINE,,,, those are actually the only 2 I usually get come to think of it (the worst one has to bee the green bottel though, it's wheat grass and kiwi and barf bleghhh). I like fruit juice in genaral and aloe vera drinks too.

Dessert wise...I love me somce Cheescake, but I can't stand Cake Cake (bad experiences with it) Brownies are heavenly, My fav ice cream combo is Praline with cookie dough, though I like green mint chocolate chip and old fashioned vanilla as well. I love parfaits and yogurt in general too. Chocolate coverd strawberries and fondu is the shiz! Let's not foreget ouatmeal raisen cookies and cinnamon bonds tew!
Fruit wise, I've been on a huge peach streek. i just LOVE me some peaches adn cream. I aslo like either fresh or canned cherries (just not the marichino ones...eww) Bananas are awesome and so are kiwis and I like me some strawberries and grapes too! I CANNOT STAND DRAGON FRUIT makes me nauscious.
Fav resturants are Red Lobster, Carrabas, Konnitiwa's. Umezono's, Ihop, Boiling Pot, Sub King, Panera, American Cafe, Zia's, Outback Steakhouse, and Chekers... I like wendeies too...

Yeah i'm such a food person XD

ETC: I LOVE TO DRAW, DRAW, draw. I submit most of whatever I draw onto the net and it tends to be digitally colored, but most of my stuff starts off on paper then scanned then the mighty tablet. I'm also awfully interested in homosexuality thoughout civilizations. Whenever I see a book on it, I must buy it! It's like an indapendent study...wish I could get credit for that. I'm Originally from Pittsburgh PA ( I miss snow and visible seasonal changes, and reliable public transportation. Mobile's sux big time) I believe that almost any ailment can be cured with throat lausange spray and sleep (this was before cancer mind you).
on a random note... I currently have a piece of my colon hanging out of my body called a stoma. It's supposedly temporary, but I gotta wait till after chemo to get it reversed.

Ok that's everything one would probably want to know about me or find interesting, If there's anything else leave me a message er sumthin...my hands are dying so I'm done now...

Friday, October 9, 2009

So yeah....

think i'mma use this for drawaing and complaining about chemo....yeah, sounds nice...